Can't get over

This picture! I was searching for these cute knit monkey outfits where it comes not only with the monky face hat but a daiper cover that has a tail and I came across this. Can you believe this little baby!?!?  first of all I will never have a baby that small. so precious and delicate! Secondly the pink is just too pretty. I must still have some "girl envy" left in me because I just think this pic in blue would not have the same effect, lol now give me those toes to kiss!!!!

okay okay, I had to post a boy one too just to prove that they are to die for as well. . .

I mean look at that little chin and his oh so boy nose. sold! send him to me post haste!

Sunday Morning at Home

We all caught a small cold over the weekend so we are taking a low profile this morning. Trinity has had it since thursday but yesterday I got the sore throat and congestion and today it is the same if not a little worse after a tossy-turny night. I was in labor in my dreams most of the night which really has a powerful effect on your psyche. I find myself tired today and I wouldn't call it cranky but a little off for sure. Blah is a good word for it. Blake came downstairs saying his "neck" hurt. =) He then began crying and said I kissed him too much. (ha ha, that's what I get for telling trinity it is probably our good night kisses that got me sick when little ears are in the bottom bunk listening to every word). They are acting pretty perky though so I might give them a bath and when Jeremy gets up send them off somewhere to give me some time to rest. Trinity has been bugging already to see Kung Fu Panda 2. I was going to make them wait until after the baby, in case there was an afternoon I needed everyone out of the house but perhaps it doesn't matter so much. *sneeze

some things I would like to be doing on a quiet sunday morning:

I had a vanilla latte yesterday thanks to Jeremy, and I think the lady forgot to give me the skim milk and no foam I asked for. . .that being said it was incredibly yummy so I have no regrets. However, that is why I don't make lattes at home. I thought this pregnancy might produce my little bean baby (as in under 8 1/2 lbs.) but as each day goes by and I continue to stuff my face I laugh at myself because I am pretty sure I will end up in the same ballpark as the previous two. . .but ah I would take another of those lattes in a heartbeat this morning.

I also would like to devote some time to reading my actual bible instead of all the books that talk about the bible or are topical in nature even though spiritual in content. There is no substitute for the written Word of God. It just seems like I always reach for the closest book or the kids are demanding too much attention to really be able to focus in. This will need some work but there has been a lot of change around here lately so there is always hope.

last but not least there is nothing I would like better than to sit at my piano and worship. It changes my heart, my priorities, and very often my bad moods. I am so thankful for this outlet that draws me closer to my creator. I have been itching to try writing some more music but for now would be enough to have a few stolen moments at the keys that did not involve supermariobrothers music in the background. . .

Naming the moment

. . .trying to make sure all the bills get paid in this new location; that our address is changed on all our cards / accounts/ etc;  continuing to unpack boxes, move things here and there, organizing;  throwing longing looks at the piano on occasion. . .oh wait, what is this basketball someone put under my shirt??? huh, that's not a ball it's a baby! that's right, I seem to remember planning to have one more about nine months ago. hmm. what's that? he's ready to come out now??? you mean I will be in the labor and delivery wing of the hospital, then trying to put the carseat in right to take him home, and all that other newborn stuff? What do you mean I can't put my whole back seat down for trips to nee nee's? what's his name you ask??

shoot, deciding on a name must surely be on one of my to do lists somewhere. . .
ah yes, here we go. . .

1. pack hospital bag
2. charge camera battery and video camera battery
3. take friend boxes for her move
4. go to target for disposable wipes for the kids' bathroom
5. go to bible study (which was amazing. I move it to number one importance)
6. take trin back and forth from school
7. try not to lose it with blake when he whines
8. NAME THE BABY

ah! there it is. . .
with so much going on (and I know everyone has lots going on, I'm no special case) I was taken aback by a brief pre-labor session last night. My contractions picked up and I had quite a bit of back pain. I was thinking that if this was the real deal that I was NOT READY.  To clarify; I feel ready for the baby, minus of course the no name thing, but not so much for the pregnancy to be over. I am thinking it's my last and as he was wiggling around in there I realized that it would be hard for me to reconcile that these moments will so soon be gone.

I felt like I really needed to rest in the moment. almost like it deserved a name too (hence the title of the blog). I need to be trying harder to remember these last few pregnant days. I just want to revel in the blessing God gave me of carrying life. I know not everyone feels that way about pregnancy (for some it is a physical/mental/spiritual battle) but for me it has always been a special time. I was so eager to have trinity that I don't think I really enjoyed the end of that pregnancy, plus there was a move involved at that time as well. With blake I think I was able to savor the moment but it all passes too quickly and one forgets how it really feels to anticipate a baby's arrival and yet be saddened by the end of a very emotional experience. So I sit today in complete limbo, one part ready to have a baby and move on with a busy summer schedule and the other part screaming "hold on!, I still want to process, I feel like there is more I need to process". Which part wins?

well babies don't really let you dictate to them your desires so I guess the baby plan does. At least I have been able to sit and write for a moment. Sometimes that is enough of a process to help me move on. Now where did I put that name book???