and just like that February is done.

The second half of this month has been a whirlwind. Mom, Nat, and the kids came over for mid-winter break and boy did we make use of our time together. They got her on a Tuesday and Wednesday morning we took Sophie to pick up her American Girl Doll. I had been searching craigslist for months for a dining room table and chairs but was having trouble finding one I thought would work well for homeschooling. Tuesday night I saw a handmade table over eight feet long and I thought "oh too bad I have no way to get it". Well lo and behold mom and Nat made the serendipitous decision to bring the truck instead of the jeep. It occurred to me I might actually have the ability to get a table of such size. So on the way to the A.G. store I stopped by to see it. I was very excited. It was just the right size, unique, and interesting, and I wouldn't have a heart attack if it got a little beat up. It's made of Virginia barnwood by a man who makes cane chairs. When his client (who I got the table from) told him she couldn't find a table to fit the chairs he had already made he declared he would make them a "good family table".  He filled every knot that fell out with an inset diamond of wood that gives the table character.  In the end after we got the doll I turned right around with the van (who knew that it would actually have MORE room with all the seats in the floor than my sister's truck) and mom and I loaded it up and brought it home! On Thursday, I hit the ground running and bravely painted over an old canvas my mother had given me. That was totally fun except that Blake completely lost it when my mom told him he couldn't have a snack and I had to intervene and it was a big ugly disciplinary mess. Having my family here though made it a little easier and on Friday we hosted a baby shower for my dear friend Morgan. It was lovely and I was SO thankful for Mom and Nat's help. Sadly they had to go on Saturday but it was a wonderful visit. Here are some pics of the table and painting, and the kids who got to enjoy our old fashioned popcorn machine. I had Trinity play photographer as it was the first time we had used it and they are making faces because they thought it took too long. We also took a little nature walk as we waited impatiently for them to get here so I will through a few pics of that as well.

thank you MyCakes

 these are the letter I made Morgan for the party

ah Nat, congratulations on your doll! lol

the canvas I painted over. Bye Bye eighties pueblo

and so back to the parenting. Some of you know that Trinity was recently diagnosed with ADHD. I believe that Blake is right behind. After an upswing of behavioral issues I have realized that some serious changes are necessary. I don't know if I will seek a diagnoses immediately but rather begin some reading and learning and PRAYING. Blake and I had another big go around earlier this week. I was truly at my wits end, tried everything, and went to bed completely overwhelmed. I know all mommas get here but man, it is just no fun. After a few days and a few key phone calls to the people I know can speak truth and encouragement to me I feel better this weekend. God is bringing me to my knees this lenten season and I need to just get comfortable here. I need to learn to LOVE here. Becuase it is the ONLY thing that's going to get me through the next few years of parenting. lol. #noseriously 

I think for Trinity the homeschooling is a real hope for me. This year is going to give us time together that no one can take away from us, ever, and at such an important stage in her development. I think for Blake we are looking at a resetting of the clock. If you are going to act like a three year old then we must treat you as such. I think major screen-time restrictions (although I still defend that it does not directly affect his ADHD symptoms) are in order. A marble jar for good choices/bad choices with a pretty big goal in mind (like a trampoline). Apparently for ADHD kids it is very difficult to understand that the past and present affect the future. So more time devoted to talking about spiritual matters, how to incorporate what past behavior has gotten you and why working on good habits now is essential to your future (which you should definitely care about). The Lord led me to a great verse to encourage me this week with Blake. Blake struggles to accept responsibility for actions. He would rather lie about it than confess. So we talked about this: "For Godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death" - 2 Corinthians 7:10

He has been a little slower to anger the last few days and asking for hugs unprompted. =)